Who Am I? (Lifelong Learner)

 Assalamualaikum, 2022.

Hello, how's life? It's been a while since I wrote all my feelings in 2021.

At last, we've just realised that we are nothing in this world, just like a human with the name.

I do. I admit think it again and again. In the point of this life, in my age, I still don't know what I'm gonna do. Sometimes, I guess and ask so many questions on my mind, 'Is it life that everyone's used to say the quarter life crisis running?' This is so crazy even I haven't reached the quarter years of 100 age. 

You know I just wanna share, take the good and wash the bad away hehe.

Change the topic!!!

About 2022. It will be a great year (soon). Because 2022 are.. The year of my graduation. The year that I have face a reality become a human. The year of something's gorgeous doing. Aamiin.

So, what about 2021?

Okay, let's remind a bit if it. 

The year of 2021 was awesome. I learned a lot. There's joy, sorrow, funny, lucky, bad, and many more. I can't even write it one by one. But on the other side, I also feel empty so far. I don't know what is the reason. It is just going and going.

Okay, past will be past, just take a look the future. We can't change the past, but we can make sure our future better than yesterday.

You know, everyday I usually think about what the tomorrow will be. And it just thingking, there is no action. It was so wrong that I can everything but I won't. Don't take this sample.

I was so much in thingking but it does not change anything. Actually, I was confused with myself. Something that I have learnt is be brave. Take the action. Even you didn't what would happen in the future. Just do that, it was better you try and never regret your decision not to try.

This passage entitled "Who Am I?". I have been writing this since January then I continued to finish in this month, May. Hahaha, such a delayed writing.

Back to the topic.

Who am I? This is just a question, but not sure I could answer it. I just still look forward myself. In my life journey, everything's happened from the good to the bad, from the joy to the gloom.

I would like to describe myself as a longlife learner. Why I could say like that?  The deep reason is because I was nothing. Then I still did not know everything. Like everyday in my life I always found a bit information or knowledge. Most of us, I guess, do the same way. I guarantee that.

For the example, when I helped my mother in the kitchen. I chopped the vegetables as my desires. When my mother took a look at my result, then she said it was wrong. There were such a technique to chopped that veggie. And at the moment I realised I should learn how to do that. It was the simplest process of learning, even the example just from the kitchen by chopping vegetables.

Learning not always you come to the class. Having your attention to your teachers or lecturers. In this life, learning is a widely process that involved in your life journey.  

We are all just a human, that have so much question about life. By learning something everyday we can know that certain things going on. From that you can take a lesson and learn of it. 

From my journey in this world, exactly 21 years life, has taught me that I never really live my life entirely. Still just swimming deep in my mind. I have failed encourage myself, but I thought it was not over. I do believe that my dreams still alive.

Someone told me that I should not trap with my mind. Look everything in others point of view. Just decreasing from negative thinking. Then I realised he was true. I am really grateful that God sent me him to wake me up. Realizing that the world would not stop running even I'm down. Exactly, there is a hope.

I remembered this quote. A bit rare, but have a deep meaning.

"You only die once."

Sometimes, it should be "You only live once". Yeah, it was for the general as usual in the society. But this Yodo, let's say it Yodo not Yolo, in my religion had a true message. Human is created to be immortal. In the world they lived then died, once, they would be awaken again. From that the consequences is responsible. Human must to be responsible to what they have done in the world. I do believe about this concept. It feels like 'is that true?', yeah, we will see it after death. Cmiiw, I'm just human.

As the conclusion I would answer the question "Who am I?" with several ways such as:

1. Human, exactly I am.

2. Lifelong learner, this why I keep asking and pushing myself to go ahead.

3. Believer, I am a God creature so that's why a believe God will guide everything that happened in my life.

Yeah, that's all about this topic. Sorry it was running round explanation of me. Don't be dizzy to read.

2022 is great and challenging year. Hope y'all can get a long through this year. 

Thank you for reading.

Wassalam,

Ra🥀