I'm Sorry, I'm Not Good Enough

 Assalamualaikum everyone!

How's life there?? Hope wherever you are, you will be always blessed by Allah Swt.

So, in this occassion I will let you know about me. My feelings exactly.

I will admit something that I'm not good enough. If you've ever seen me in person then you look me in appearance after that whisper in your heart, "Oh this person was kind. She's so good!". It was such a hard compliment I have to accept, because I was not what you've been thingking. It helps from Allah Swt. that covered up all my bad and mistakes.

Sometimes, I feel like another side of me. You know like the world has a bright and dark side, so am I. When I was in my condusive way, bright side, I thought that my dark side was abudance. This is not balance I thought. Then I fell into my guilty space. I realised that time Allah has saved me from another me.

It does not mean I have more than one personalities. I'm just confused that I can't handle and control and manage how I would to be. Maybe I was in my full of emotions and worst sugesty. Feel bad of this situation.

I hope I can consistently manage it. Then I try to figure out what can I do to overcome this. I know sometimes it does not matter to be not good enough. In this case, I can learn how to be and find out the solution. I have some opportunity to know me more and well.

Obviously that everyone in this world might be has experience same as me. I'm not the one who feel this way. Everyone has their own. But it depends their management to control this feeling. Perhaps I forget that I'm a human who has lots of mistakes and badness. I'm just can't thingking clearly. Sorry.

Day by day, literally I found out a light to my problem. The ways that I do when I've been there in my feeling and thinking. Here are some tips of that.

1. Do some dzikr, dusk and dawn will be great

2. More grateful for who you are

3. Learn to be good and kind 

4. Love yourself

5. Always known that you are not alone

6. Keep it mind, no one's perfect

7. Sharing with others

8. Honest to yourself

9. Control the madness

10. Decrease negative thinking

There are the tips of me for you. Hope you can take the good and eliminate the bad from my writing. I just want to share. 

Thanks for reading this!

Wassalamualaikum⚘